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 No.2[Reply]

Welcome to /nofap/

This board is for the discussion of nofap, noporn, and the societal implications of fapping and porn.

RULES

http://oxwugzccvk3dk6tj.onion/nofap/rules.html

>1. Stay on topic. The topic is pretty loosely defined here so use some common sense.

>2. Don't post porn. NSFW images will be deleted. Posting NSFW material as a shitty troll attempt will result in a comically long ban. This board is SFW, so keep it that way.

>3. Non-/nofap/pers are welcome to come and question the premise of nofap and to argue against nofap. That said, shitposts, flames, bait, spam, and trolls are not allowed and such threads will be locked or deleted.

Just those three.

If anyone needs to get a hold of me try my e-mail at plaguedoctornf@8chan.co.

And because I don't want to clutter the board with excess stickies:

ITT: dump /nofap/ infographs, videos, links, banners and other such things

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 No.14337[Reply]

Here we go lads.

User suggestion:

>>15260

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 No.17034

Today I had a pretty bizarre experience to share. To give some background, I've been into nofap since the beginning of the year, with a lot of trial and error, but getting better ever since. Today would have been exactly 21 days since my last failure, but my longest streak was longer than a month.

But overall I would say I was doing my best this time doing fine, today I just wanted to lazy around, lying naked with the sun on my bed, and got tempted to read some H manga (again, this is my one temptation, but one that was going much better than my previous streaks). There was this one story that made me diamonds, and I started cumming without even touching my dick, just by sheer twitching and pelvic strength (like in kegel exercises), with the initial pleasure with was quickly followed with a lot cum.

Needless to say, this was quite a different experience for me, it felt halfway like an wetdream, between my own control and the other half being my own prostate pushing out excess semen. It didn't have the regular push of a fap, but still quite a relieving release. Of course it wouldn't have happened if I didn't tease my self reading that stuff, so I'm unsure whether to call it a full failure, and I also unsure if its something I should avoid altogether.

Point being, have anyone experienced anything like this? I also don't want to turn into some sort of chronic premature ejaculation guy.




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 No.8190[Reply]

This is a thread for people who are on the verge of giving in.

Post pics that would easily kill your erection/urge to fap. I'd say don't post anything too graphic, but I suppose that's up to the mods.

Sorry if this is shitty material. I have some gore but I'm not sure if that's allowed.

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 No.16971

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 No.9366[Reply]

>stop jacking off

>feel better about quitting porn

>realize i still waste my time dicking about online

Anything you've done to replace/limit time online?

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 No.16460

Something good is to put a keyboard shortcut on my computer (shift+F1) that instantly shuts it down. Good for when you have those brief moments of clarity that last shorter than it takes to hold the power button down. Stopped a relapse in progress last night.

>>16108

I'll try that this weekend. It's possible I am convicted but not convinced.

Glad you're kidding about /gif/, because I have looked at that board for purposes other than proving Mahound right




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 No.14859[Reply]

longest streak was like 1 month 13 days i believe. had a relapse on some dumb tranny's furry shit. fapping has make me lenient and i want to curb it completely.

tips for impressionable, undisciplined men and relapsers

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 No.16940

>>16771

>when i get urges, i watch the nz shooting video

Good idea. I watch Hitler speeches and the urges go away at once.


 No.16984

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W E E K 1 2

post autistic anti-no-fap arguments


 No.17039

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>>16476

where is this image in that collage


 No.17049

>>14859

I will tell you what helped me for 50 days before I was dispatched. It may work wonders in your case.

Physical conditioning is best when it comes to enforcing a habit or removing it. So, I suggest that whenever the urge hits that you have a belt at hand, take off your shirt, and hit yourself on the back as many times as it is necessary to make your brain associate the urge with immense pain. It will work; hell, I'll retry it myself.

Take care not to engage in the lashing when in presence of others or even in their earshot as they'll think you crazy. Personally, I used to go to garage and hit myself.


 No.17051

>>14859

I'm not riduculing you by this suggestion as I am infected with this disease as well.

As time passes, youre mind will have an unwelcome premonition of the habit and will help you overcome it instead of just promote it like it normally does.




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 No.16947[Reply]

I just relapsed to the most depraved 2b porn and am deeply ashamed of myself. What motivates you/ what drives you away from the thought of having to fap?

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 No.16951

File: f54b84566d49a41⋯.jpg (63.83 KB, 675x1000, 27:40, hitler color.jpg)

>What motivates you/ what drives you away from the thought of having to fap


 No.16952

>>16947

>the most depraved 2b porn

I would ask for sauce, but…

What really motivates me right now, is remembering how good it felt When I was full on mustering my power, and next to that is remembering that I don't really enjoy depraved fapping, but I what do really want is the companionship and warmth of real love.


 No.17043

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>What motivates you/ what drives you away from the thought of having to fap?

That sexual immorality has been used as a weapon to destroy entire civilizations.


 No.17048

>>16947

If I fap, I give over myself to a meaningless life, and can never achieve my goals.




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 No.16443[Reply]

I declare this thread for sharing and discussion of /nofap/ related books.

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 No.16550

>>16545

BASED!


 No.16560

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>>16545

Bible is basically Semen Retention - The Book told very symbolically. Luke 8:11 gives up the mystery. Let that word of God dwell within.

Also, I've read and can recommend for serious nofappers/celibates:

- Regeneration by Kevin Sylvan Guthrie.

- Practice Of Brahmacharya by Sivananda

Recommended by other anons:

- Manhood and Marriage by Bernarr Macfadden

- The Coiled Serpent by C.J. Van Vliet.


 No.17044

>>16550

>Luke 8:11

How exactly does this relate with semen retention at all?

And I call bullshit, can't find it right now but in the old testament it clearly states that those who seek and lead life based on wisdom will reap the true riches, doesn't you have to believe whatever you read out there, but it doesn't mean that you should ignore everything as well. Specifically, the Ecclesiastes book is pretty good one.


 No.17045

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>>17044

>How exactly does this relate with semen retention at all?

What is seed in man? Semen.


 No.17046

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>>17045

Are you kidding me, and in that passage does it say anywhere to retain your seed?

Its an obvious analogy to the word, otherwise it would just mean to spray your semen everywhere and hope that some of it lands on something that can grow.




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 No.16965[Reply]

I have been masturbating daily since I was at least 3 years old. Yes, 3. Obviously I wasn't getting hard and jacking it to porn at age 3 but I would take the corner of my bed cover and dry hump it, rubbing it against my dick until having an orgasm. Started watching porn at 7 when a friend was staying the night and showed me some and how to access it on a computer. I'm now 21 and masturbate sometimes 3-4 times a day. Today is the day. I'm done.

 No.16975

AND…?


 No.16979

>>16975

>Today is the day. I'm done.

I think he's saying he's going to try to stop beating the meat.


 No.17041

I wish I had started on nofap that early. Good luck anon, you'll do well.




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 No.16942[Reply]

You probably already have heard about weird sayings about masturbation that it will delay your puberty (or will cause you to stay short), meaning less hair, less beard. Other claims like it makes your dick stay short, baldness and even the more ridiculous claims that it can cause short sightedness over time.

Well… I looked up Zinc deficiency and loss of testosterone. It does it all. I have developed short sightedness right at my puberty when I started fapping. Same thing happened to my brother but even worse. I remember all my friends and acquaintances in school had trouble developing facial hair. Fortunately not for me.

I am hoping that now that I stopped fapping my eye condition will not worsen or may improve even. Fortunately

I don't know what caused the ridicule campaign but it pisses me off because these are serious and irreversible health defects that are downplayed.

Does anyone have a similar experience like I mentioned or hopefully improvement after nofap? Any wonders that can help eyesight?

 No.16944

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>Does anyone have a similar experience like I mentioned

yes, I noticed that I have a lot less body hair than my father. I began to have eyesight issues (nearsighted) around the same time I began to fap.

>improvement after nofap?

yes, my hair on my head and my facial hair grow *a lot* faster. yet my facial hair definitely isn't as full as my dad's. furthermore, my voice is about ~10% deeper since I've been on NoFap (on day 45 today, what a coincidence).

I think my memory may have improved some, but maybe not, i'm prescribed topiramate right now but I quit taking it over a week ago once I discovered that it led to depression, poor memory and others including myself also felt like they were getting stupider (srs) from taking topiramate. hopefully the side effects will all disappear, i've been on this shit for two years now and when I was fapping, PMO + topiramate made me very, very depressed and I felt like shite. thanks a lot for telling me the side effects, Dr. Goldberg. had a PPD a few days ago, I hope that shit doesn't make me forgetful, but I've been suspicious that it has somewhat made me more forgetful or some kind of brain fog, mostly because others online complained about PPD (for a tuberculosis test) fucking up their memory. I'm suspicious of the medical mafia, as you can tell.

>>>16942

are you claiming that zinc supplements are necessary for real improvement of eyesight and stuff like that? if so, what about fish oil supplements, too?


 No.17016

File: f2570062c563eb0⋯.pdf (2.16 MB, No BS guide to Vision Impr….pdf)

Read pdf related and >>>/tech/1002210.

I'll post the link too because I'm sure I formatted that wrong.

8ch.net/tech/res/1002210.html


 No.17018

>>17016

>pdf

He dismisses the Bates method out of hand, without saying why. I've read Bates' book and he presents evidence based on thousands of clinical trials. If you're the guy who wrote that, please explain why you think Bates is wrong. I'm willing to hear different arguments, but 'yeah, nah' isn't an argument. Also the author's credentials are 'dude, trust me'.


 No.17020

>>16942

>Does anyone have a similar experience like I mentioned or hopefully improvement after nofap?

I started masturbatin around 12-13 and started balding at around 16-17. My father is full blown bald and I had and still have stomach issues so it might relate to Zinc.

Regarding hairness, I have shoulder hair, early puberty and facial hair despite, also very early and easy I developed muscle mass. Faping wont do you good, but genetics and environmental factors are here as well.

I also sweat A LOT and always had, could it be related to faping?


 No.17040

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The old wive's tales about fapping were all true. Damaged eyesights, faster aging, faster baling/grey hair. We ignored age old wisdom in favor of "peer reviewed scientific beliefs" peddled by kikes. I feel angry too.

And yes, I've noticed improved vision after 60+ days of pure retention (no sex/fapping, no lewd thoughts, if the body lusts I ignore the thoughts and refocus on my life and work). I have even stopped wearing my glasses to work (and do have to squint sometimes), but it motivates me to stay on this journey and heal myself. I figure 1-2 years of celibacy should give me my 2020 vision back.




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 No.17012[Reply]

So I've had this realisation of how and why porn actually makes it much less likely that you will find love. It corrupts the initial interaction that you have with pretty women, your thoughts and intentions whilst you know them, and thus ultimately all your actions. But most of all, THE MOST IMPORTANT THING, is that the guilt of the fantasies porn gives you, stops you from becoming a carefree, relaxed, friendly, loving and kind person who deserves a girlfriend.

This revelation has effectively stopped me watching porn completely. The temptation has just disappeared since I realised this. I can know all about how it fucks up my brain, and I can forget about that in the moment. But remembering that porn is going to stop me becoming a loving husband, that it's going to stop me doing the right things to get the perfect girl when she comes along, is 100% unforgettable and totally not worth even the shortest yielding to temptation.

 No.17013

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>>17012

Filling your mind and spirit with filth, sure it's bad for your androgen receptors or whatever, but who cares in the moment of horniness? I can just stop later. It's fine making myself a horny creature, I can use the energy to fuck bitches from da club, yee hah.

However, think about that 16 year old virgin who you'll randomly meet one day at the park in 2 years when she's 18. She's kissed a boy but that's it. She's a hockey player, insanely fit, thick ass, slim waist, big boobs and beautiful face. Looking for someone to show her what love is.

Are you going to meet her and be a filthy minded perv? Is her body going to send you into overdrive with lustful fantasies, and the dirty images in your head make you too guilty and ashamed to openly talk to her and flirt with her?

Or are you going to smile to yourself, knowing you're worthy of such a beauty, that you want to have sex with her but that's not all you can think about? You can chat cool headedly, and actually begin to attract her with no guilt or feeling that your intentions are impure. You can be the good man she's dreamed of.

Bonus one, kind of unrelated to porn but still I think it captures something.


 No.17029

>yay ! Fight porn with love !


 No.17038

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Good infopics. The more time you spend away from porn, the higher your chances of becoming a successful Chad.




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 No.17036[Reply]

I went a full 107 days of Nofap before I relapsed and fapped. The energy and power you gain from abstaining is absolutely amazing. Nofap really is life changing. I know there are tons of Journals here on this board already but I feel the need to add one for my new journey. My last go at Nofap was 107 days. I'm now shooting for 1 full year. I will try to update daily on my quest to rid myself from the filth that is porn and masturbation. Feel free to jump in the thread for a chat bros. We can do this!



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 No.16990[Reply]

We need NoFap Memes so we can laugh at it but also understand that NoFap is the MOTHERFUCKING POWERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

 No.17028

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OC


 No.17033

>>17028

Redpilled & Based




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 No.16991[Reply]

Day 1:

The past few days i have been failing at nofap. I had a good 100 day streak, but i started visiting /wg/ and browsing a nude thread there. I have been going in a cycle where i have a small streak and then relape. I just relapsed prior to creating this thread and i have decided once in for all to quit.

I now know that my problem is that im spend way to much time browsing 4channel and that inevitabily leads to coming across a lewd thread.

From this day i will stop browsing 4channel and only visit boards such as /diy/, /g/, and /3/ when i need to ask a question. I will also refrain from masturbating for as long as possible. I will spend my time programming, 3d modelling and working out instead.

 No.17008

News?


 No.17021

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>>16991

>browsing 4channel and that inevitabily leads to coming across a lewd thread.

This is my exact problem, as much as I like to browse 4pol, there is simply too much porn there, just recently I made around 100d, then 40d, then barely 20d, now its on off 10d or every 2nd day…what coincide with big periods is not enough time to surf. I feel so shity today after relapse…what is worse the fall usually starts harmless, I click the pic of girls thinking "sure, I can handle it I have self control", day passed or 2, I do the same, on 5th day Im going crazy from urge and either have to take a run to regroup myself or search for porn online.

Ones eyes are the first frontier.

also what is "4channel" & "4chan" thing? I wasnt following the news when it happened, do you know the backstory?


 No.17032

>>17021

>4channel

[4chan.org] They changed the domine [4channel.com] and i think there's no NSFW boards.




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 No.16983[Reply]

ITT we post the most autistic excuses for fapping

 No.16988

lol i dont need any excuses


 No.16995

Discord is literally porn addict central dude, it's worse than cuckchan. It's a scientific fact that all discord users will eventually get into crossdressing, stop using it already.


 No.17019

>>16983

>>16995

What even is discord? I've never had the slightest interest in it. These are the first screencaps I've seen, it looks like 4chan but with identities and no images.


 No.17031

>>16988

Same.

I just need to do it for the last time


 No.17047

>>17019

It's basically a chatroom site. It's full of spics, trannies, and ironic weebs so you're not missing out on anything.




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 No.15196[Reply]

Might as well

>day 51

Longest streak but I'm still not feeling much to be hoenst, neither psychological or physical change or improvement. I've had probably 5 wet dreams as far as I can remember but been quite aw while without them even thought I had an erotic dream last night.

Last week was kinda rough, I almost lost it but managed to push through.

Today I feel like shit, maybe I slept too long because it's sunday but I feel very mentally exhausted and upset, I don't even want to play videogames. I went outside for a couple of hours, made a campfire and chilled a bit but I'm just not feeling it. I have this urge to just drive somewhere and camp outside in some forest tonight but I don't have the energy or drive to do it.

I'm getting back into work next week or so, I'm looking forward to doing something again but at the same time I'm a bit scared because I know that when I get home from work and I'm tired there is nothing better than having a fap. Relaxing in my chair or bed and just rubbing one out feels so fucking great when I'm tired after a days work, feels very rewarding.

I don't see any difference in my behaviour, I'm still extremly shy and "boring". I'm a bit lonely but at the same time I don't want to be with other people

Maybe it will get better

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 No.16877

>>16860

You're waking up - Keep at it. Do not worry about not keeping up with your old friends because you can no longer endorse their debaucherous company. Focus on doing what brings happiness to your soul, like you said, maybe find another club or start your own club.

>I haven't fapped yet but I admit I've watched some porn and edged a bit.

This is all poison to your progress. Drop porn, fapping - even sex for pleasure like its poison. There are other more healthier ways to relax. Maybe read a book, there's a lot to learn and read - learn from examples of other great men and how they mediated their life. Watch a TV show or go bike riding. Or get a dog and walk him around. Plenty of things you can do that isn't rooted in lust but a love for life.


 No.16882

I envy you fuckers who can just go out and get 1000+ day streaks. I can barely get past 2 weeks because I've become so apathetic to everything that only physical pleasure like fapping can make me feel good, even though I know it's fucking up my dopamine receptors. Not even things that are designed to make me feel good like video games and junk food work anymore. On days when I don't have anything to do I'll just lay in bed and play video games to ignore the creeping sense of dread that consumes me every time I think too deeply. Sorry for ranting, it's the only way I can talk about this shit because I don't want to burden anyone with my shitty baggage. Again, sorry about this. If it's annoying then just filter and ignore this. I just needed to say this somewhere.


 No.17000

File: 060d988ce8745a9⋯.jpeg (39.07 KB, 720x647, 720:647, 7b46c4bc05f8.jpeg)

It's over, I relapsed this morning

I woke up with a cold very early and felt like shit, I should have just gotten up but instead I chose to feel good, so in my half sleep I started rubbing one and before I knew it I lost control

It's like I feared, that when I started working and becomming tired I just want to feel good even if it's for a brief moment

I can't believe myself, 148 days for nothing and I feel disgusted and ashamed. I don't understand, it's like I can't control myself when it happens, I know that I shouldn't be doing it but I just keep going until it's too late.

But I'm not giving up, I'm starting over and hopefully I'll do better


 No.17014

File: e1e613b64d7c1d4⋯.jpg (73.98 KB, 1000x658, 500:329, 18674.jpg)

I've thought alot about why and how I relapsed but I can't seem to learn how to stop myself next time it happens.

I can say that I feel the effects of fapping again now, I've been so tired, upset and withdrawn even since it happened. Maybe it's the cold or maybe I'm just upset at myself.

I'm very horny now, I feel like I want to watch porn and mastrubate again and it's been times when I've thought to myself "I'm gonna fap tonight" but I don't end up actually doing it so that's good. I have looked at some r34 porn just to take the egde off when I'm really horny, I figure it's better to just just browse some pics and get the initial lust away to avoid going cold turkey or relapsing again. I sound like a fucking drug addict.

Work is good but it has been a little stressfull and tiring these past days, however I'm getting so much positive feedback from the guy I work for and he's even trusting me enough to let me work a shift alone this weekend. What I don't like is that he's a boomer who talks non-stop, most of the time he has really good and funny stories to tell but sadly he's too much into news and politics which is really boring and tiring to listen to for a person who doesn't watch television or cares much about modern politics. It's especially annoying when I know that what he's saying is complete bullshit fake news. But I just smile and say yes, I don't want to create disagreements between us.

I can say that going 148 without fapping has helped, that's at least 50 loads of life juice saved for the wife I'd hopefully impregnate one day.

Here's to another streak, I hope I can make it past 150 this time


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