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I'll start. can't get anymore bleak than this:

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Truly one of the last great death metal records of the 90s.

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this board will remain like a true doomer - dead and empty inside

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i lol'd

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name any album that is more doomer

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Another Album. Only posting albums. One for the Doomers that got caught.

"…Early one mornin' while makin' the rounds

Took a transfusion and I shot my woman down

Went right home and I went to bed I stuck that lovin' 44 beneath my head…"


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Pornography is without a doubt one of my all time favorite records. Spiderland is fairly high up on that list as well.



You Won't Get What You Want and Leaves Turn Inside You have been regular listens for me throughout the past few months. The synth arrangements on both albums are well planned and restrained, which is always nice.


Extreme metal and post- genres constitute the majority of music posted here, so I think it'd be a good idea.


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I adore Pornography, though some days I feel Disintegration is more apt. I'd honestly love to find more music that feels like Pornography, especially The Figurehead, that kind of slow, dirge-like melodic dissonance with those kinds of minor key progressions.

You know speaking of metal I see most extreme stuff get posted around, but rarely do I find people posting older stuff or less extreme stuff, there was a guy a while back that posted NWOBHM like Satan and Tank in the music thread, seems to have deleted his posts. I agreed with the sentiment that those bands can be doomer too, if only for the overblown theatrical dynamics in 80's metal that it portrayed emotions and such. Most of them are in minor keys as well, which are sadder than major key. I find this song to be pretty doomer imo, with it's disillusionment with love in general.


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Lycia uses melodies with dissonant harmonies at dirge like tempos as a staple, albeit with more synths. While I'm not personally into less extreme metal, I understand the desire to listen to music that is boundary pushing yet doesn't take itself too seriously sometimes. Pigfuck and noise rock fill that niche for me because they're what I listened to as a teenager, but it's the same niche.

Does anyone else here make music?



This is really fucking good, thanks anon. I make music but it's mostly melodic crossover thrash with pseudo rightwing lyrics, think Carnivore's second album, Retaliation, which is kinda tame for your average fullchanner but would drive most leftists (which is the majority of the punk scene and to a lesser extent, metal scene) into rage or sarcastic yet still mad "yikes", "wow calm your edge" style comments. Musically speaking it's basically Iron Maiden styled punk riffs played really really fast, not exactly depressing. About 70% of lyrics are in spanish, some english, though I haven't sung much. I've got some demos lying around but I'm not exactly comfortable spreading them due to anonymity issues, would rather do it in a faster moving thread in halfchan's /mu/ for example, and with the state of that board it'd probably get ignored or derided, one or both.

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I hate to say it. That's why I'm saying it here. She's not a bad person, but she's ruthless.. and paranoid. My childhood was her second childhood. I can never be a man, in her eyes. Her conception of man is literally a god.. you probably think I'm exaggerating, but I'm not. I love her a lot, a whole lot. I cry almost every night. I have been through so much. I was hooked on crystal meth and also every otber drug known to man, and I quit by my own strength. It's been three years. She only acknowledges how bad I was to ever do it. I have horrible eczema all my life. Many days I have large patches of raw, bloody skin on my neck and face. I try to hide it. She only tells le that other people have it worse. She's never worked a hard days work in her life. I've worked construction, BOH line cook, EMT.. she gives me a simple "good job", but only after I beg. I am so ready to be done with her. I can keep her happy from a distance. But life put ke back in her clutches, becase she's helping me pay for school. I'm eternally grateful. My grades are great so far. But she is not helping. I'm super autistic. I slam doors on accident and run into stuff. I'm actually one of the most autistic people, usually the most in every one of my classes and I'm 27. I rarely ever complain and I never try to make anyone feel bad about my own problems. I just have been so close to death, so many times these last few years. Every night I worry about it. I don't want to die, I love life. I am grateful to be alive. The whole time I was trying to get off drugs, my parents drank themselves into blackout almost every night. And I can never mention that to them. I try to help them, say "just please drink less, you aren't happy when you drink that much.", but they see this as an attack on their pride. They see everything as an attack on their pride. I love my parents, i can see all their vulnerabilities and i protect them. I see the kid they still are. But they use me. They have become accustomed to it. I hate to say this. I just need some encouragement or advice.

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>She only tells le that other people have it worse.

This sentence is so obnoxious that boomers should get a rope for even thinking it.

Weren't you thinking about finally moving out? If you don't have money just loot the old bitch. My father is alcoholic and the real hell started when I was at high school. If it wasn't for my young brother I would at that time take everything I could, buy a ticket and fly away. I was really ready to be just homeless, I didn't cared if I live or die. Your situation is different, I'm just wondering how could you stay there until 27. Alcohol addict won't change unless he wants it. You can't do nothing about it, that's the sad truth. My father lost everything, he has no one, lost 2nd job in last year because he was going drunk to work, almost feel sorry for that poor fucker but then my mother always tried to help him even though he beat the crap out of her daily until she had to be hospitalized with depression, sleeping for weeks, she was for years on pretty heavy meds. He still didn't changed because he doesn't want to change, he loves drinking until he passes out. Do you know what I mean? On top of alcohol addicts you have some old hag with complexes, being emotional vampire.



You may love her, but if she's making your life worse, more terrible than she's actually helping at least on an emotional level, just abandon her. Don't be concerned with someone as selfish as that, if you can stand it, just try to get every bit of money you can/need out of her and split.


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> she's not a bad person but [list of reasons she is a bad person]

Stop lying to yourself. Your mom is a nigger and you deserve better. Doesn't matter how many times people have helped you in the past, what matters is what they can do for you now and in the future.


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I also had problems with my mother, we were barely on speaking terms, and we only talked to fight. She was always complaining about everything, and just like your mom, she wanted me to be a literal god in earth, often asking me to be things that are extremely conflicting, like being a religious vegan cuck faggot who shares his feelings in groups, and a bold person who can stand his ground and push people away easily. When I was a teen she was always trying to castrate me, because for some unknown reason she looked at me, skinny beta nerd, and unlike everyone else in the world she saw the image of my Chad father, so she was always trying to make me even more of a whimp then I already was, since my father didn't fall for it.

You know what made me get over it? A line, a simple line, that is disturbing but also completely real: My read "your" mother acts like a nagging wife. And to nagging wifes you don't give credit, because they don't know what the fuck they want from you, they just go complaining on the way. The secret to deal with a nagging girlfriend is realizing that her opinion doesn't matter, and altought rationally they WANT you to listen to her constant drivels, what they NEED is that you stop giving then credit, man up, and follow only your own expectations and dreams. Subconsciously they desire you to work on your own demands and take the wheel of your life like the man of past times, but they don't know how to make you do it, so they nag without stop waiting for you to lose it, smack then in the face, and do your own thing. Rationally they don't want that, emotinally, they do.

Stop listening to her, stop following to her expectations, stop taking whatever she says personally, and in the next confrontation just say you will do your thing and if she wants to tag along, good, if she don't, get out of your way. Make a list of what you trully want, where you trully want to go, what you trully want to be, and follow that only. Women opinion is shit, even your mother's. Listen to this advice, this is stuff I should have learned when I was a teenager.

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What do you miss, doomer? What do you wish you could experience again for the first time?

I miss my mother's breakfasts, we never had much growing up but she always managed to put something warm and tasty in front of us in the morning. I can't say I have had food that made me that kind of happy since.

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I miss the rifle team in high school, my first seargant who ran it, him teaching me how to meditate, and gifting him a fruit tree.


I grew up isolated in a small town so most of my childhood was playing with my toys ot N64. Now I can only get pleasure from N64 games I played as a child and I feel so pathetic for that.



Just scroll over my name in the post you just replied to, m8, idgaf



email sent brah


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post /doomer/ movies or just movies you wanna share

Buffalo 66

i saw this when it first came out and didnt like it then. recently i gave it another day in court and enjoyed it. his relationship with Ricci is obviously something that would only happen in film (i doubt kidnapping a ballerina would go so well IRL) but it would be cool. there are cringe moments, personally i dislike the myth of the dysfunctional American family because that's not too widespread of thing when i was growing up.

the best thing about the movie is the authenticity in acting, wardrobe, settings, music etc. its a very aesthetic film. also the ending was great and got a big reaction outta me.

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Ian Curtis didn't shoot himself.


This board should be pinned.


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long live Keanona!

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What is your choice of political ideology, /doomer/?

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The world already works like this. However this time around, the Jews are the Brahmins.


Based post. "Trad" is the new Trump- a Schelling point for half-hearted cucks.


I created my own political ideology. Here it is:

There should be a country for each of the different political ideologies. Socialist countries, Capitalist countries, Authoritarian Right countries, Islamic countries, anarchy countries, etc. The only caveat is that borders are kept open so everyone can emigrate to the country that best reflects their own values and interests.




Now that's what I call autism



can you really expect anything else from the dude who created urbit?

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Why are you a doomer? What made you this way?


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Parents want from kid a good person, some kind of ideal which unfortunately isn't working in real life. I can't blame my parents for putting all these memes to my head, I blame myself because I either realized it's bullshit too late or I never did anything to change the situation. The only thing I was successful at was being myself which brought me nothing but trouble but at the end it turned out that at least I could live with myself, live with my own identity, no matter how terrible that identity is. Be yourself is unironically pretty good advice because at least you know if people hate you, it's because of you and not because you try to please them. Big cliche, brings nothing but pain irl but worked for me.


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Sometimes I honestly believe if all those "values" are just one giantic shittest collectively enforced by society

>get a honest job, junior

>be a good human bean anon

>don't steal and lie anon

>don't be a criminal anon

>be nice to girls anon

>be nice to your bullies anon

>money doesn't matter, so don't try to become the next jeff bezos, there is no happiness there

>material things are useless

it is like they are bombarding you with obviously fake crap for the sole purpose that you finally wake up from your dream world and move your ass. They only keep up those lies to have plausible deniability

>we didn't parent lil' johnny into becoming the next pablo escobar, we taught him love, peace and tolerance. Don't blame us

While at the same time they often go diametrically opposed to their "values"



Of course it's all just spooks but the real thing to realize here is if you do exactly the opposite of what you just listed, you might at least be successful criminal for few years before somebody blow your head off. That's also real fun, when this should "wake you up" and get to work while if you do the opposite, you get stuff done.

>you won't get anything done in school

>you have to be an asshole sometimes

>you have to steal something (even if opportunity) for yourself

>you have to lie sometimes

>you can't be nice to a bitch who terrorizes you

>you can't be nice to bully

>all that matters in this fucked up world is money

>only thing that will patch up your broken soul is having pockets full of money

>material things are useful and you better be a crook if life cornered you because you have no other opportunity

But still, I'm brainwashed into being nice guy, showing the other cheek, being a gentleman (but not submissive) even to a bitch who screwed me over, blaming myself because some asshole climbed over my back for selfish reasons, etc. I mean, can I really blame my parents for trying to make me a good person even if it's illusion? I'm still really not sure if It's fair thing to do, I can blame myself for having and opportunities to make things better and not turning them into reality.


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not for long



>This is the reason why genetic waste should not have children.

>They just create unhappy humans stuck on a planet they feel no connection with.

not true. one of the best guys i ever met was born because this guy raped his mom. he was the product of that. it didnt stop him from being an optimistic guy that had a lot of talent and who did well in life.

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>be me


>have chihuahua

>wake up hearing chihuahua whining outside

There's a fence surrounding one side of my house that covers about 10-20 feet out which my dog uses to go outside to shit & piss.

>it's raining lightly

>2:20 A.M. EST

>hear fence creaking, like something is pushing on it

>chihuahua is just standing there whining, not barking

>go outside with a big walking stick

>don't hear anything, it ran off

>walk around to find chihuahua, he's just standing in one spot in the mud, won't move from that spot until i approach and he goes back inside

>walk around a perimeter outside my house, bang my big stick against wood and metal to scare shit away

>don't see anything

>didn't hear footsteps as it ran off, either due to rain or because it wasn't that big

>just walk around banging my stick loudly against shit to make sure anything nearby heard it

>go back inside

>dog's feet and legs are covered in mud, clean him up

>go out and /nightwalk/ again, dog ran out with me to go mark territory around the place

>i go catch him, see some deer that run away

>take him inside AGAIN and clean him up

>have to close his doggy door to make sure he doesn't go outside again tonight, planning on doing this every night and just letting him out to pee

>have to /nightwalk/ every night now to make sure nothing's out there

My only question is, what was it? I live in the southern U.S. Appalachias, so i'm thinking it could've been a bear. They're quiet when trying to eat prey but scare off when humans are near. Problem with that is that, aren't bears supposed to be loud?

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t. Your Jonathan Frakes


Sounds like a Wendigo, you're fucked.



Could be anything. Bears can be really quiet though, they can back up even if dog barks on them from the dark but the question is if it's right time. I heard bears are now mad as hell because of short winter they woke up early and have to get food. So if it is bear, you really don't want to be there, you don't want to get your dog there no matter what. + Bear probably wouldn't go there if you wouldn't have something he can eat, you know? Garbage, anything. Bear is staying away from humans afaik unless he's hungry and he might be at this time of a year. Don't know about weather conditions there though.



>aren't bears supposed to be loud?

Maybe it was an introverted bear.



>boomer that owns a chihuahua

shit thread

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Hi Anons, Is there an irc, matrix or anything like that plz no discord that /doomer/s can use to chat? I think an IRC server/channel could be interesting and perhaps worthwhile.

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free secure anonymous client for chat, filesharing and other nifty features.



its peer to peer too so not pozzed



I love mai waifu

please don't hurt me like this anon



All waifus are trash.


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Agree with you, your waifu is great, and I want her to cuck you with me.

Watching the show now, and at least the first season manages to be very smart and touch adult themes without resorting to over the top violence and cursing just to keep the attention of teens, like adult cartoons today. Really good stuff, hard to believe this masterpiece came from Beavis and Butthead.

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The question here is: Do I like Brutalism because I'm a Doomer, or does liking Brutalism make me a Doomer?

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no honestly, society and their faggotry about always having to be cool and strong is to blame. It makes life living hell for the sensitive people.

It is always bad to see stories like that end badly when they could have been happy ends.



I can't predict future, don't feel bad about that particular story because since I know myself, how I was at that time, I would screw it up anyway. But I agree, sensitive people have it really hard. What is worse, you have this sensitive kid growing up and when he/she reach adulthood he/she is cold as stone and totally corrupted. We talked about this before, I think zoomers will have even bigger hell because of this than we did, with difference being cool means uniformity, not being different in own way as before. Fit in and be cool.


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>sensible zoomers having it even worse

I can confirm. my bestie has the following in her steam profile bio:

>professional school shooter

From all the horror stories I know personally, what she tells me about schools today feels like 3 times worse. Sometimes I feel bad for telling her that it will get better later in life because I know this is a lie but somehow I still have faith in her to making the transition into functionning and relatively normal adult.

BTW I know that feeling of "I would have fucked up anyways".

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Pingus are conformists (all look same with their suits) and gays

So they are a perfect metaphor for normalfags



Also it's noticeable how many of them have some sort of mental issues. I know a few zoomer girls and they all have some mental issues, so they all try to deal with it. One of them has a new boyfriend every like every week or two, then she panics because it might get serious and don't talk for anybody for next month. Kinda hell if you ask me.

>what she tells me about schools today feels like 3 times worse

Share something if you don't mind.

>Sometimes I feel bad for telling her that it will get better later in life because I know this is a lie but somehow I still have faith in her to making the transition into functionning and relatively normal adult.

I know that feel. I kept telling this to every person I knew while feeling bad inside because I knew those are just empty words. For some life got better, for some didn't, so hope she will be the one who will see a light.



>mental issues

my bestie has enormous self esteem issues. I always tell her she is fine, made of pure gold but I can feel that she is always insecure.

>anon that girl you once told me you like, what did she look like

I feel like she wants to compare herself to other people all the time

She also seems to draw most of her self worth from her academic results

I knew about this women minds are fragile meme long time before but this really devasted me to see that it was this extreme

>Share something if you don't mind.

when I grew up normies bullied you by calling you names every now and then and showing you you were lowest on the food pyramid. Today it looks like total savagery with no remorse what so ever. She was bullied, parents called school, principal and teachers did not give a flying fuck, eventually she refused to go to school, dropped out for a year and had to change the schools. But I am proud of her because she is best in her class now. Some normies envy her for it. She even has some friends. I always motivate her to find more friends and keep ties with the little friends she has from past times.

>so hope she will be the one who will see a light.

she wants to get into informatics. She is smart and this profession has future. I have no doubt she can make it if she wants to. However I fear if she ends up alone like I did, somewhere in her mid 20s she will lose all motivation and just drift around in life without any aim. This is why I was telling her to get together with this boy she liked. They seemed like the perfect real life anime couple to me. Both shy and tender and too uptight to confess their love to each other.

I thought they need each other and can motivate each other to achieve something in life.

My hope is still that they find to each other and I go to their wedding

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This thread is about the coming financial meltdown that is likely to happen throughout 2019.

In the other thread I named some possible reasons already:

>record company earnings/profitability

>lowest unemployment of the last 50 years

>record stock buybacks by companies

>difference between 10- and 2-year Treasury yields on 11 year lows (yield curve)

Those are indicators that were present just before pretty much all of our past recessions as well.

Especially the yield curve was always very helpful in that regard.

Then we also have:

>record debt levels in governments

>record debt levels in corporations

>Increasing interest rates

>fed unloading equity from their balance sheet to the open markets (mostly stocks)

So the fed is reverting its easy money policies because they think the economy is doing great again.

In fact everything is very fragile.

In the past 10 years, companies used cheap credit by the federal reserve to invest. However, their investments are not always generating the desired cashflows. Now with interest rates rising again, they are using more and more of their cashflows for servicing their debts. Same goes for governments.

The federal reserve bought up lots of stocks since the last recession. For the past few months they have started offloading this crap again in the open market, putting additional downward pressure onto stocks.

For comparison here is the Dow Jones Stock Market Index during the last big crash.

It plunged from its ATH of 14'000 to around 6'000 during a time period of about 15 months.

I hope you enjoy our ride down and make some money off it.

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F.A. Hayek, the road to serfdom

Ludwig von Mises, bureaucracy



None of these will teach you anything about economics.


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Karl Marx - Das Kapital Volume 1:


Karl Marx - Das Kapital Volume 2:


Karl Marx - Das Kapital Volume 3:


Paul Cockshott - Towards a New Socialism


Otto Strasser - Germany Tomorrow:


Muammar Qaddafi - The Green Book:


Daniel De Leon and the Foundations of American Socialism


Abdullah Ocalan - Democratic Confederalism:


Murray Bookchin - The Politics of Social Ecology: Libertarian Municipalism:

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Learn from the chiefs in the game - jews capitalists. Knowing that they screw the economy up is nice and all but what you want to know is how to profit from it as well and help us accelerate the collapse. Don't forget about friends here and buy us Lambos when you be at the top.



Honestly you will need some intro econ textbooks. Look for editions that are older than the most up to date ones. Paul Krugman's macroeconomics book is good (he might be a fuckhead but his textbook is solid).

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Free winds and no tyranny for you, eh?



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Is sleep paralysis common amongst other Doomers or is my buddy the only one?

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So common when I don't have it I feel off the track, plus it's fun since sometimes i see and feel really weird stuff.



I rarely have it, but when it occurs, it annoys the shit out of me.



I've had it a couple of times; one time I woke up to see a black cat with red demon eyes sitting on my chest staring at me. I was still loopy from just being asleep, so I thought it was my cat that I had back then and I pet it going back to sleep with a smile. I freaked out a bit the next morning when I remembered though.


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I had sleep paralysis when I was in my teens but I rarely have it anymore maybe once every couple months


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i used to get it very often from alcohol withdrawls along with hallucinations and some of the most psychotic and horrible dreams ive ever had.

i would be stuck that way for a long time trying not to fall back asleep because it felt like my heart was going to stop. i was trying really hard to yell but was only able to manage a groan with all my strength. in my mind i thought i was able to slightly lift my arms and legs which seemed to weigh 10x their normal weight, and tryed to get the girl i was with's attention. i thought that somehow she could wake me up or make it stop if i could only get her attention.

i thought my eyes could be forced open a crack and that i could see the room around me.

she said that i would just be barely trembling and grunting for an hour or so every morning. i would finally awake with a quick jolt to every limb and a triumphant yell. many of the things i thought i saw with my eyes "cracked" weren't really there.

the dreams i would have were insane. i felt like i was on the edge of death and saw shit difficult to explain.

i was at the end of a 5-6 month bender drinking nearly every waking hour. it eventually got so bad along with actual physical illness that i cleaned my shit up, but fuck were those last few weeks rough when my brain was almost completely melted. i guess i didn't die fast enough, ran out of money and was too much of a pussy to kill myself or go to jail; sobriety being the only alternative.

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I never voted for Trump. I don't vote in federal elections. I knew Trump was a con, just like I know the federal government are the enemy, and slavers by definition. I knew Trump would be an appeasement to Whites. His role was to take the fervor and fight out of White Americans, who at the time were energized as more people participated in this election than possibly ever. The MAGApedes were appeased because they felt they elected Trump (they didn't, he lost the popular vote and was installed by the electoral college) and they were "winning" so they could sit back and relax for a time, and he would "build the wall and deport them all." I knew he was installed to energize the left and congeal hatred for Whites. I knew he was installed to demonize any future candidates running on a populist or Nationalist platform.

This is just part of political theater, the ends of which are to turn America permanently into a jewish plantation, where they farm citizens for tax revenue and use them as cannon fodder in wars for greater Israel.

I knew all along, for years longer than the tens of millions of people now calling themselves "Nationalists." I spoke and wrote about this plan for years on social media, at many events I attended, and across 3 websites I wrote for. My message was never heeded. I have been called "tin foil" "wignat" "blackpilled" etc by people who only now are starting to smell that something is rank.

Like Cassandra, I saw the future, but was powerless to stop it. I know why Cassandra wept. This is one of the reasons I am a doomer.

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move to china and stop shitting up my board. at least tripfag already dipshit.

(useless hoe ain't gonna make pimp a dough)




You follow and eat everything I say like a dumb broadie and still beg for more, you my hoe. Should've call me daddy bitch but I ain't playin. Too boomer to know the game, too dumb to walk the streets, come back when you be ready to call me a daddy.



you've never even seen a black person faggot. needless to say you would be my bitch easy, because you are a frail little witch boy.



now you're editing people's posts? very gay BO



All this does is reinforce my belief that Trump was never meant to win to begin with. The only reason he ran was because Hillary needed someone to look worse than her by comparison, either winning her the election or putting someone into office so incompetent that it lets her (or whoever will act in her stead) use "you don't want him again, do you???" as a selling point in the next election. Textbook controlled opposition, just like all the far-right nobodies and groups that conveniently popped up right around 2014-15 and gave the left the boogeyman they've been so desperately wanting.

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